July 2011
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June 2011
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story time
Last summer was when I stopped eating for the first time. I just found some writing that I did around August of last year that basically summarizes the events leading up to meeting my boyfriend. I changed names and certain, because I’m trying to write a book, but this is basically what happened. Funny how things come out in writing…
As soon as I discovered that I was once again left...
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118.8
so i weighed myself today for the first time in a loooonnggg time.
i’d been weighing myself on friends’ scales, and i was landing anywhere between 120 and 125 over the past couple months. i always tell people that i weigh 120, and i consider myself that weight, because i’ve never weighted more than that in my life. therefore, when i weighed myself today for the first time on my...
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29.06.11 version: "falling off the bandwagon"
today i ate:
- chocolate carnation instant breakfast
- laughing cow cheese slice with crackers x2
- one cup coffee with no-fat milk and sugar
- water x5
- 50 cal pepperoni stick x2
- vegetable blender soup (200 cal)
- chic-pea, chicken and veggie stew (300 cal)
- cheese + crackers x4
- medium double-double (late night sesh with M!!!)
- peanut butter and marshmallow square (my mum brought...
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thoughts #3
i’m feeling really overwhelmed by everything right now. i’ve been sitting at the dining room table that i’ve taken over with all my binders, paper, books, pens, etc, for a week. i’ve been sitting here for a week! my back hurts, and i’m nowhere near being done. i’m a little stressed to say the least. i’ve gone through about half of my stuff, but now i have...
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shoppppingggg
i can’t say for certain, but i feel as though i’ve lost about 2 pounds. i weighed myself once, and it said 118.8, but it’s hard to say if that’s true. regardless, i bought two pairs of the cutest shorts!!! some aritzia ones that are black and have anchors on the buttons! and some beige hollister ones that came with a preppy blue striped belt. they were both on sale, and...
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thoughts #2
i can’t wait to go to quebec on friday. it’s a brand new start for me because i won’t know anyone there. it’s also going to be a 5-week system cleanse. i’m going to work out all the time, eat healthy, and not have any distractions from parents. i lose the most weight when i’m on my own, so i’m really excited about it. 4 more days till i leave!!! god give...
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27.06.11
another bad day:
- 1 cup of coffee with no-fat cream
- 1 glass of gingerale
- 1 fried egg and havarti sandwich on whole-grain bread
- 1 homemade chicken burger on a whole-grain bun
- 1 small, raspberry julius
- 1 apple tart from whitespot (went out with girlfriends!)
- half-cup of coleslaw (ate my friends because she didn’t want it… ugh)
it wasn’t the worst, but after...
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goal #1
have i ever mentioned that i’m a certified highschool teacher? yeah… i just got my certification in may, and i’m currently finishing up a Bachelor of Education that i’ll be finished in August. there are very very very few teaching jobs in Canada, unless you’re certified to teach french, math or science. since i’m an english teacher, i’m pretty fucked for...
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plans
i want to come back from quebec in five weeks and look completely different. i want someone for the first time in my life, to tell me that i look good at my size. i’ve always been skinny, but never in great shape and skinny.
last fall, my hips widened about 2 inches. i should have been expecting it, considering i’m 21 and didn’t have hips. but it hit me really hard, and all the...
Anonymous asked: i'm 5'4,16 and i weigh 116 pounds. im struggling with this. i can see all the fat on my body, and when i compare myself to all my friends, they're so skinny and you can see their hipbones and they're just so perfect and i'm scared that if i dont like 16 pounds no one will ever want to date me or be friends with me. its taking over my life and im freaking scared. i dont eat...
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26.06.11
today i ate the most food i’ve had in a while in one day…
- 1 medium ice-capp
- 1 glass of coke
- 1 quarter breast of chicken
- 1 beef burger (homemade, on wholewheat bun)
- 1 slice of icecream cake
- veggies + dip
my parents hosted a family bbq here and so i had to indulge in the meal. i don’t regret it, because my family is awesome and all the food was healthy. but i...
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